Today was my first real day in my office at the main church. I actually think it's somewhat of a group office - although no one has technically confirmed that for me. So I hope they don't mind that I rearranged the furniture...
Anyhow, the few hours I was there, plus my other experiences as a part of getting ready for and getting settled into my internship, have reminded me how important organization is to me. I've felt sort of disorganized, and like I'm not entirely certain what I'm supposed to be doing and who is in charge of what.
This isn't necessarily helped by the fact that my supervisor, who is already 90 miles away, happens to be on vacation at the moment. Granted, he has been available by email and phone, and told me I can call him 24/7, which is good, but still...
I think part of my um...discomfort...is related to the fact that I still don't really conceive of myself as a "pastor," per se. My name is on the sign outside the church, and I've been referred to as "the pastor" numerous times already, but I still feel sort of out of my element. I'm not certain whether this is a permanent vocational issue or just something I need to grow into, but regardless, the idea that (priesthood of all believers and lay leadership not withstanding) I am in charge here, is mind-boggling to me.