2012...in the books!

1. What did you do in 2011 that you'd never done before? 
Got "drafted", got ordained, preached in sem chapel, served as the sis' maid-of-honor, started running, stared down a crazy lady and disarmed her with the power of prayer, learned about asbestos

2. Did you keep your New Year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year? 
Eh...I did alright on the yoga front, but then things got busy and crazy and it kind of fell off the map...not really making any this year.  I don't know, not that there aren't things I want or need to do, but making those things "Resolutions" just seems to tank them, I don't know...

3. Did anyone close to you give birth? 
Tim & Emma, whom I'm a horrible person and I forgot, Erin-the-bestie, Molly, no one else that I'm particularly close to

4. Did anyone close to you die? 
Again, no one that I was especially close to

5. What countries did you visit? 
I spent 2012 just chillin' in the good ol' US of A...

6. What would you like to have in 2013 that you lacked in 2012? 
I reeeaaaaalllly need a Churchstock-ish small group...

7. What date(s) from 2012 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? 
Ash Wednesday, because it turned out to be a really fantastic evening, the sis' wedding ('cause duh), ordination, Christmas Eve

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? 
Le Breakup, which is kind of sad, but it really represents a strength and courage that I didn't know I had, incredible self-awareness, and the ability to make really good decisions, no matter how hard they are.  Also, getting ordained, and landing a job despite interviewing with a fever of 103 and being so ill I thought I might pass out while touring the building...learning about HAES...

9. What was your biggest failure? 
Not getting into Marquette.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury? 
Surgerized the endo, although it seems to be returning.  Gigantor sinus infection (see #8).

11. What was the best thing you bought? 
A new couch.  (I guess?)  An alb.  Grace for the Good Girl.

12. Whose behavior merited celebration? 
Will, for toughing out the sheer insanity with me.  Katie E, for just generally being awesome and amazing, and advocating for me and Will when we couldn't do it for ourselves anymore, and for canting at my ordination.  Carrie Carrol, because she listens and cares. Mark Granquist - he cares *so much* about his students.  Bishop Zellmer, for drafting me.  Bill Tesch, for talking about Jesus.  Erik, for loving me.  Liz, for talking me through approval.  Luke, for entertaining me on Ash Wednesday.  Rachel, for introducing me to the Uptown Cafeteria and Support Group.  Erin for being so ridic supportive this fall, Molly for preaching the law to me when I needed to hear it. 

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed? 
See, the thing is: if you want me to grab your ass in public, and then don't understand why I balk at that, I will automatically be appalled and depressed. 

14. Where did most of your money go? 
School...again...

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? 
The Boy, graduating, being ordained, Katie and Will's Magic Spreadsheet, the Olympics (including the US men's water polo team...), Christmas at the Capitol, my congregation *totally* rocking the Nunc Dimittis on Christmas Eve

16. What song will always remind you of 2012? 
"Tonight Tonight" by Hot Chelle Rae

17. Compared to this time last year, are you: i. Happier or sadder?  ii. Thinner or fatter?  iii. Richer or poorer? Happier, don't care (yay HAES!), richer (yay, job!)

18. What do you wish you'd done more of? 
Playing!
 
19. What do you wish you'd done less of? 
Obsessing about dumb things/people.

20. How did you spend Christmas? 
Worship on Christmas Eve, then dinner with a family from church.  Made a figgy pudding on Christmas Day.

21. How did you spend New Year's Eve? 
Frozen egg rolls, Full House reruns, and lots of productive-ness for work.

22. Did you fall in love in 2011? 
I guess I didn't "fall in love" in the romantic sense...but I learned a lot about what really loving someone (a friend, a SO, a fellow Christian, etc) actually means, and actually feels like.

23. How many one-night stands? 
Nope!

24. What was your favorite TV program? 
Hawaii Five-O, the Olympics

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year? 
Does it sound overly pious and gag-me-with-a-Christian to say, "I don't know that I really hate anyone, people just tick me off" ??

26. What was the best book you read? 
Grace for the Good Girl, and Freedom for Ministry

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Um...

28. What did you want and get? 
vocational clarity, the new worship "curriculum" by Chris Scharen, (thanks, Liz and Rachel!)

29. What did you want and not get? 
A mix CD, haha.

30. What was your favorite film of this year? 
Won't Back Down

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? 
Turned 31, had dinner and played Apples at Chatterbox with Liz, Rachel, and Bonnie. 

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? 
Hmm...anyway...

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2011? 
Balancing my personality with "dressy enough" for work...a little more into skirts

34. What kept you sane? 
God and my friends, pink wine, frozen yogurt, Grace for the Good Girl

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? 
Kirani James + Oscar Pistorius, Paul Ryan, Gabby Douglas, N.T. Wright

36. What political issue stirred you the most? 
The general idiocy of pretty much every elected official, particularly at the federal level

37. Who did you miss? 
Um, basically everyone.

38. Who was the best new person you met? 
Baby Malachi.  My new bishop.  Le Boy, at least at the time. 

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2012: 
Know yourself and your needs, and don't be afraid to advocate for them.  When you care about people, tell them. 

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year: 
"Well Done" by Moriah Peters

I'm headed down this narrow road
Chosen by the few
And all that I know is
You told me to follow You

I'm taking a risk and leaving it all
Not knowing what I'll go through
But I'm not alone
As long as I follow You

So when my life's a leap of faith
I can hear You say

Well done, well done
I'm gonna chase You, Lord
I'm gonna show the world Your love, woah
I'll run, I'll run
I'm gonna run this race
To hear You say well done

If people walk with me, talk with me, looking for truth
They're gonna find out soon
If they're following me then
They're gonna follow You

So let my life speak loud and clear
Lord, I wanna hear

Well done, well done
I'm gonna chase You, Lord
I'm gonna show the world Your love, woah
I'll run, I'll run
I'm gonna run this race
To hear You say well done

I'm so glad that I get to serve You, Lord
You're the only One I am living for, woah
I'm gonna run straight into Your open arms
I'm gonna follow You with my all heart, woah, woah

Well done, well done
I'm gonna chase You, Lord
I'm gonna show the world Your love, woah
I'll run, I'll run
I'm gonna run this race
To hear You say well done

I'm gonna run this race
To hear You say well done
[x2]

Well done

Year in Review

Yay, more surveys!

1. What did you do in 2011 that you'd never done before? 

Walked a 5K, visited Mt. Rushmore and the SD and ND Badlands, sisters-only road-trip, preached an entire Triduum, went to Montana, took the evil BCP, made a quilt, visited Canada - lots of stuff!

2. Did you keep your New Year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?

I did a pretty good job with my "something for myself plan", at least until summer when I was getting ready to move.  Post-move, back in St. Paul, back in school, not so much.  Going to bed at a decent hour and commitment to LOTH, not so much.  For 2012, I love this Yoga for Dummies video, and I want to get serious about doing it more often.  I spend at least an hour screwing around on the internet every day - I need to convert that into actually doing something productive. 

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?

Hmm...a couple people, not as many as in past years, or who are likely to in the near future.

4. Did anyone close to you die?

No, Deo gratias. 

5. What countries did you visit?

CANADA!!!  (And apparently, I attempted to emigrate there.  Turns out Canada doesn't give out "courtesy" passport stamps - if you want one, you have to complete the entire immigration interview.  Which I and the esteemed author of Life as a Journey were only too happy to do - because, really, what else are you going to do at the Pembina, ND border crossing at 10:00 pm?)

6. What would you like to have in 2012 that you lacked in 2011?

Honestly? I want to get married.  I hope that doesn't come across as desperate and pathetic, but the reality is that I'm tired of doing life "by myself".  The "white devil" has been really good at telling me that's "not spiritual enough" and I'm sick of her, too.  I've gotten better the last few months at being really honest with God, and saying, "You don't appear to be taking this desire away from me - so let's get going here."  Whatever else life (God) might send my way, I'm up for.  I just want to do it with somebody.  Oh, and what else would I like?  More grace for myself - I think that God and other people give me a lot more grace than I give myself, and I need to get better about that.

7. What date(s) from 2011 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?

Am I strange because I don't have "dates etched in my memory"?  The non-approval approval, obviously.  Can't stop thinking about that one.  Dream about it every night.  Fantastic.  What else?  Oh, May 3.  When Pastor Mike said, "Just listen to me tell you that God loves you." Reading the whole Bible in 40 seconds with 4500 of my closest friends.  Oct. 21-23 - the horrific "Dismantling Racism Workshop" followed by a pretty freaking awesome birthday party with some of my favorite people.  Finding out that my (married) 8th-grade algebra teacher was hitting on one of close friends - a total God moment, actually.  Randomly deciding to go to Teddy Roosevelt National Park, with the bestie. 

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?

Several contenders for this one - surviving Lent, creating a fantastic Good Friday service, surviving 6 credits (7 classes) relatively psychologically intact, (literally) organizing the crap out of my file cabinet, but I think the winner is going to be completing the 5K (and I wasn't even last!). That or the quilt. 

9. What was your biggest failure?

Ugh, so many.  I really did let the White Devil hog-tie me into dysfunction for a significant amount of time this year.  Approval.  Not keeping in touch as well as I should - emails, phone calls, texts, FB messages. 

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?

Endo!  Suffering for years, finally doing something about it.

11. What was the best thing you bought?

Geez, I don't know.  I didn't "buy" all that much - at least, all that much that's interesting.  Gas and plane tickets for some great trips, I guess.  Canada, Mt. Rushmore, Badlands, DC

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?

Mer - for just simply being the best; Lynn - for always being up for a West Wing and dark chocolate marathon and bribing me with the rare North Dakota Starbucks to get approval crap done; my sis - for crazy roadtrips, obsessing over Casey Anthony with me, and saying "why the hell are you taking a drug that is the focus of an ongoing class-action lawsuit?"; Erin - for telling me when I'm crazy and snapping me back to reality; Will - for being the best co-HR ever and a really great listener; the inestimable Katie E - for giving really amazing hugs and visiting me until 3 am; Dr. Jacobsen - for being one of the few people to actually listen; President Bliese - for his general awesomeness; Dr. Reno - for writing me a rec letter; and at least 30 more people who I think are wonderful but this list is getting really long - if you did something that you think (or hoped) "merited celebration" in my life, count yourself celebrated.  (Either that, or demand to be celebrated in your own dedicated blog post next year!)  I love my friends and family. 

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed? 

H--- M--- and P------ S----.  Everybody and everything else is way down-ballot this year.  It was that kind of semester.

14. Where did most of your money go?

School...again...

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?

Canada!  Mt. Rushmore!  Having friends at and near school - Susan, Luke, Molly, Katie, Kellie.  I mean, really, I was terrified that I was going to come back from internship and literally not have any friends (many of my besties from seminary are themselves on internship this year).  The fact that I do means those people are awesome, and God is awesome. 

16. What song will always remind you of 2011?

How Many Kings by downhere

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:

i. Happier or sadder? Different..happier, I suppose. 

ii. Thinner or fatter? Pretty much the same...and there's a 2012 goal...

iii. Richer or poorer? Poorer. Earning actual dollars on internship was awesome.  Spending them all on school again...not so much...

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?

Reading, I suppose.  It's hard for me to read when I don't have anyone to discuss it with, which is what made it hard to read in ND.  I wish I had spent more time just...savoring...ND...

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?

Goofing off on the internet/FB.  I really need to work on this.

20. How will you be spending Christmas? 

I was at my parents', with the fam.  Mom, dad, sister.  Good times.

21. How will you be spending New Year's Eve? 

Hanging out with the Churchstock crew.  This seems to be becoming a tradition, which is fine by me.

22. Did you fall in love in 2011? 

Apparently not...

23. How many one-night stands? 

Nada...this answer never seems to change from year to year...

24. What was your favorite TV program? 

Hawaii Five-O, Big Bang Theory, Burn Notice

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?

Does it sound overly pious and gag-me-with-a-Christian to say, "I don't know that I really hate anyone, people just tick me off" ??

26. What was the best book you read? 

Uncle Tom's Cabin.  Without a doubt.

27. What was your greatest musical discovery? 

Matt Maher

28. What did you want and get?

Hmm...to kick my butt into gear academically, to be HR, lots of traveling, and - oh yes - FRIENDS!!!

29. What did you want and not get? 

So many things...

30. What was your favorite film of this year? 

Seriously, I saw like one movie in ND.  I wonder what it was...  Hop, that was adorable.  Oh, The King's Speech, which I guess came out in 2010, but I didn't see it until 2011.  Fan-freaking-tastic.

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? 

I turned 30 (!!!!), and threw myself a Non-Racist Birthday Party with sweet potato fries and fabulous friends.  Food, drinks, Apples to Apples, music, singing, hugs, and all manner of goodness abounded.

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? 

Hmm...anyway...

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2011? 

Finally succumbed to the stretchy jeans, since apparently no one on the planet makes 100% cotton jeans anymore.  Learning to accessorize.  I'm going to be a hot PhD student.

34. What kept you sane? 

In the backwoods of NoDak - Facebook.  Back at school - friends, some of whom I think we were clinging to each other by our fingernails, supporting each other with what appears to have been a divinely-appointed rotating schedule of faith and sanity. 

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? 

Walt Brueggeman, Archbishop Chaput, Tony Campana, The Newt, Matt Maher

36. What political issue stirred you the most?

Hmm...currently it's ballot access requirements in Virginia, but that's incredibly nerdy.  TSA crap.  Oh right, the Wisconsin legislature finding it acceptable to just...not go to work. Babies.

37. Who did you miss? 

Um, basically everyone. 

38. Who was the best new person you met? 

My ridiculously awesome co-Head Resident.

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2011: 

Being introverted does not necessarily mean that isolation is a suitable life choice.  You know when something is wrong with your body.  God. Is. Faithful.  Even when it doesn't feel like it.  At all.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
"Turn Around" by Matt Maher

If you're scared that you don't matter
If you're lost and need to be found
If you're looking for a Savior
All you gotta do is turn around